Nowadays I find myself hesitate before writing the truth down ….. but I can’t change what this is. Like taking the photos… this is me, my soul, my heart, the things I want to remember… come what may. Tonight the highs of the magazine seem washed away by my loss of her yet again. Its raining… it hasn’t stopped for what feels like days, and my heart is drowning in this swirl of memories.
I had to come home from work early again …. some days there is no hope, I am still so weak at times. Wonderland has become so much more than a project… maybe its my alternative world, somehow it comforts me, these storybook lands… these characters. I sometimes just sit and look at the colours and the scenes, and wish myself there again… some of those were the happiest days I have had since her death. Tonight I walked home in the rain… hands in pockets, hood up ……headphones blocking out the real world. Grey shapes pass, slide, splash my shoes, cold air against my sore skin… antibiotics fill my system… music fills my ears. I dream of new pictures…. beautiful creatures, colours… magical woods and distant star lit snow. Where would I be without my camera? It used to be a therapy… now it is a doorway to an enchanted place, where I am me, truly me. At night I see everything so clearly, I dream in hyper reality… the forests are damp under my feet, I see paper mache moons, a pale girl trapped in a snow globe…. Katie in the velvet circus costume I’m making for her….. dancing. Its like the pictures are already made, just waiting to be set free with the click of a shutter. This is making no sense….. but I’m beyond caring, I will remember this, and why I needed to write it down. I don’t know where it will end…. any of it, the pictures, the stories… all I know is that there is a sea of it inside me right now… raging, raging, raging. I want to push harder… make things bigger, embrace it, step away from the conventional…. This is where I can lose my physical self, and be free of this broken shell…and she is there with me…. always… I can feel it……… I can feel it.
I'm exhausted... I literally stepped off the plane from China at 5am this morning and have been dragging myself around in my pyjamas all day. I'd switched my phone to silent so I could sleep, and forgot about it ...... until late this afternoon, when I saw 15 missed calls from Elbie. I switched on my laptop, and read the first line of her email.... 'WE ARE IN CLICHE MAGAZINE!'. I felt a bit sick and typed in the address, and there it was ........ 24 pages of 'Wonderland' in full colour.
For once i'm genuinely lost for words.... I suppose its because this whole project has been such an emotional journey for me.... and continuous to be, as we are still working on it. To think me and Elbie made everything out of nothing, and were just helped by friends and our partners, the pictures look 'real' and don't appear amateur amongst the other shoots. If someone had sat me down and asked what my dream end result for the photos would be..... I would have answered 'to see them as a full set, as full pages in a 'real' magazine - not an amateur photography one' ...... and its happened.... already...before I've even finished the project.
We still have more pictures and characters we want to do, and I have to finish off the pictures from the last of the summer shoots first (I probably have another 4 left now). But Im getting really excited about the winter pictures already because the woods are looking so menacing now the leaves have fallen, and the darker images are always where my heart is.
So that's it.... I just want to say that Elbie, if you are reading this..... I'm so, so, so glad I met you :) x
I've looked at it about a 1000 times now.... you can see the editorial for real here
What a day....what a day
(ps -i'll catch up about my far east trip soon)
I just landed in Tokyo, I'm staying 27 floors up in the city scape...... I have no time, I've had no sleep, I left my phone on the plane ......... but this is my view tonight, and somehow nothing else matters.........
I'll try and get some pictures, but I'm literally just passing through, I leave for Hong Kong in 2 days and then on to China. Its beautiful, it's quieter than I imagined I can't belive I'm here.
感無量！(ToT)
センセイに感謝!!
今年も『MORISAWA PASSPORT』アップグレードの季節がやってきました。
今回の目玉はやはり『ユニバーサルデザインフォント（以下UDフォント）』ではないでしょうか。
UDフォントを知らない人の為に説明しておくと
●文字の形がわかりやすい
●読みやすい
●読み間違えがない
以上の事が求められ、誰がどんな状況で見ても正しく機能する文字の事です。
私の職場では既にイワタのUDフォントを使用していました。
しかし、視認性を重視しすぎたために
文字の美しさが損なわれ不自然なバランスのフォントでした。
しかも視認性を重視してる割に大文字のI（アイ）と小文字のl（エル）の違いが分かりにくかったり
英数のデザインがFrutigerをパクッただけ（権利関係はどうなってんの？）と、お粗末な出来で不満だらけでした。
それでも当時イワタ以外にUDフォントを扱っているメーカーがなかったので
UDフォント市場一人勝ち状態が続いていました。
が、ここへ来てDTP業界トップシェアのモリサワがUDフォント参入です。
しかも明朝・角ゴシック・丸ゴシックの計21書体を発表しました。
いつもならウェイト展開を小出しにしてくるのに一気にウェイトを揃えての提供は
イワタからシェアを奪い取る意気込みが伺えます。
気になるデザインですが、さすがにモリサワらしい安定感があります。
大文字のI（アイ）と小文字のl（エル）の違いもしっかりと区別出来ますし
イワタとの違いを見せつけてくれます。
まぁさすがに通常のフォントと比べると多少美しさは損なわれてる気がしますが
そこは「UDフォントなんだから...」と割り切った方が良いでしょうか。
今回のアップグレード版にはUDフォント以外にもいくつか新書体が含まれています。
その中でも注目なのが『秀英明朝L』です。
まさか秀英明朝がデジタルフォントで使用できる時代が来るとは...ありがたい事です。
肝心の『秀英初号明朝』と他のウェイトは来年の提供までお預けですけどねw
『秀英初号明朝』は写研の見本帳で眺めるだけの書体でしたが来年ついに使う事が出来るのです！
それとオマケなんだけどモリサワもフォント管理ツールの『FontKeeper』を提供してきました。
以前のフォントワークスの件があるので無料提供されるユーティリティは信用出来ないんですよね。
説明を読む限りでは既にインストール済みのフォントを管理する事が出来るだけの様です。
結局フォントワークスと同じ事してるんじゃないの？
後々面倒なことになりそうなのでこのツールのインストールは見送ることにしました。
誰かの使った感想を聞いてからでも良いですね。
First, we're happy to announce that the team has identified and fixed the issue with the YouTube conduit; you can now find and add videos from YouTube to your library and posts. As always, thanks for your patience!
The other news we have today is about a new addition to the Six Apart family: TypePad Micro, a new free level of TypePad that is streamlined for microblogging. We see a new form of blogging emerging that lives between the quick status updates of Twitter and Facebook and the long-form posts of "classic" blogging; TypePad Micro is designed to meet that need. You can read more about TypePad Micro in Chris Alden's post on the Everything TypePad blog.
A lot of the new capabilities we've added to TypePad this year were actually inspired by some of the best things about Vox: favoriting, member profiles, a dashboard to follow other bloggers, and easy ways to post content from other social media sites. But the things that make Vox different from TypePad are still there: Vox has always been -- and still is -- the best place for "friends and family" blogging, where you're in control over who sees what. TypePad, on the other hand, is built for the blogger who wants, no, craves, attention.
Do you have a passion or interest you want to share with people beyond your Vox neighborhood? If so, we'd love it if you tried out TypePad Micro. Maybe you've always wanted to start that obsessive blog that's just about waffle restaurants. Or want a place to share videos of your favorite band (Jonas Brothers, anyone? Anyone? ...). TypePad Micro's great for those topic-specific blogs. Take it for a spin and let us know what you think.
On the Vox front, our designers are working on some cool new themes (coming soon!). We'd also love to hear your thoughts about where we should take Vox in the coming year. What are the key things you'd like to see for Vox? If you've had a chance to use TypePad this year, what are the features there that we should bring over to Vox? And, if you're thinking big thoughts, how could we connect the Vox and TypePad communities in order to bring together bloggers and their shared passions? Your feedback is really important to us, so please leave a comment here, or shoot me a message.
And again, thanks for your patience as we found and fixed the YouTube bug!
~ daisy
As many of you have noticed, the YouTube Conduit is not working. I am so sorry about this; I know how frustrating it is.
The team is looking into how to get this fixed and I will update you as soon as I hear something. In the meantime, not all is lost... There is a work-around for posting videos.
When you're in the Compose Screen, just click on "embed." Ignore the fact that it says "Widget" before everything because you can definitely use this to embed videos as well. You'll just need to input the embed code from the video, enter a title (if you want) and hit OK.
It might not show up perfectly in your compose screen, but when you hit "Save," your video should appear just the way you wanted it to.
Hopefully this will allow you to keep posting videos while we figure out what's happening on our end.
As always, thanks for your patience.
